Monday, February 27, 2006
dah berkurun rupanya. dekat setengah tahun aku tak sentuh blog. aku hampir terloper yg aku ni ade blog. aku sibuk buat praktikal ni. aku takde mase langsung. bila nak habis praktikal ni. aku tak suke! tak suke! tak suke!
apa khabar semua? harap korang sihat dan gembira (skema). aku rase nak tumbok muka sorang budak tu we WAS kawan baik sangat last time! aku WAS percaya kat dia! aku WAS think that nobody can be 'sahabat' yg baik selain dia. aku silap rupanya! dan memandangkan aku WAS silap last time, maka aku takkan melakukan kesilapan yg sama. aku tak kan maafkan dia dan tak kan percayakan dia lagi.
kehidupan aku amat bermakna sekarang. aku suka dengan life semak aku sekarang. aku bebas tapi terikat. aku free tapi ber'schedule' kan best tu kan? jadi aku berdoa semoga hidup ini akan berterusan semudah ini walaupun ada satu hari tu aku rase susah sangat nak kentut!
Posted by plug at 11:50 pm
Monday, September 12, 2005
i moved back here to gain some sort of structure in my life when everything was falling apart for me in riverside and i knew i wasn't gonna get it right away but after not having it for so long it's starting to wear down on me. In the past few months every week was so different. My plans would change weekly, i would have goals then not, my relationship with my parents and other people fluctuated constantly. I really do'nt know what im trying to say here. It made more sense when i was thinking about it in my head.
I talked to matt the other day about how i was feeling and he told me about his experience when he moved back to el monte for about a year or so. He mentioned something about when his friends from riverside eventually forgot about him. It made me sad to realize that that would probably happen to me. How long will it take before the IMs and text messages and phone calls stop coming. I mean, ive already stopped getting invited to hang out, but i guess that can have to do with the fact that i live an hour away now and they don't want me to have to drive an hour out. But i would. When i first moved to riverside i used to drive out here for the day to hang out with old friends just for the night. Some of my friends have offered to meet up somewhere half way between us, but those plans involve drinking and i don't want us to have to drive back like that. I guess it just sucks to realize this and i almost wish it would just happen overnight so it can be quick and less painful. Maybe im just being pessimistic, or maybe im just looking at life without a sugar coating.
I had more to say but my mind totally drifted to past memories of good times and now i forgot what i was gonna say. I even forgot i was writing this until i saw it minimized on my taskbar. I need to keep my mind clear for a while with some tv or sleep.
Posted by plug at 05:43 pm
Saturday, September 03, 2005
aku hampir resign dari arena penulisan. aku tak lagi berminat dengan blogdrive ni. aku tak suka dengan blogdrive yang langsung tak user friendly. blogdrive memang membosankan. ingin aku tamatkan saja keahlian aku ni. nasib baik free wakakakaka!!!
aku akan ke KL petang ni. aku dah bosan hidup dalam kelompok student yg tak matang hahaha! sinonim dengan perkataan sengkek. aku akan enjoy untuk puaskan hati aku sebelum aku kembali bergelumang dengan buku wakakakaka! aku hampir gila lama2 disini. sangat bosan!
Posted by plug at 07:55 pm
Monday, August 08, 2005
bertemu lagi dalam rancangan umpat2 cari pasal
hi pedot disini. kali ini pedot akan menceritakan tentang suasana malam pertama bagi perempuan yang kena kahwin secara paksa. tiada apa yang indah pada malam itu. lebih siksa dari perasaan wanita yang diperkosa kerana jika menjerit, ibu bapa tersenyum. jika berlari, ibubapa tersenyum, jika menangis, ibubapa juga tersenyum.
kenapa ibubapa anggap wanita itu sedang bergembira bersama suaminya? kasihan wanita itu. disaat itu indah lagi batang kayu!
Posted by plug at 11:29 pm
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
hepi besdei for sesape yg terase!
nak tau naper aku soh nko invite aku tak plug?
sebab aku nak wish hepi besdei jerk thehehe...
Posted by pezal yg ensem lagi gagah perkase at 10:03 pm
Thursday, March 03, 2005
kenapa agaknye mata ako blum ngantuk. jam dah pukul 5.07pagi. sejak mlm smalam ako baru tdo 7jam......hari ni ako sorg. teman biasa ako balik kg, g sua muka sesame pakwe blind date...alah....kes tuh abaikan dlo. kompom die tgh bahagia dalam bas, dan tak sabar nak tgu bas sampai subuh esok.
ako....??hanya duduk dgn jari agak merangkak menaip keyboard. die plak baru jek balik. naseb baik tak kantoi. baru berapa minit die blah, guard lalu kat sini. dah 3 kali kami bernaseb baik bukak stadium free. makin masuk stadium makin kuat syg ako pade die.....mungkin ke die gituh gak...??ntah la, malas ako nak pk lagi. wat mase ni ako yakin die syg ako sbb ako pun syg die.susah jugak klu dah hati terbeli dan terjual.
ako ni pompuan buah tupai walaupun isi maseh manis, tapi tetap jugak pengguna tak nak beli buah yang belubang. yang pelik dlm iidup ako, nape ade pengguna yang sanggup beli buah gini....??? pertama, mungkin die amik kesempatan. kedua, mungkin jugak die iklas.ntah la, makin d pk makin keliru, mula was2, mula xpecaye, mula itu mula ini.......
Posted by plug at 01:23 pm
Monday, February 21, 2005
I look up
as a tear rolls slowly
down my cheek
I think about better days
and wonder if I'll feel that way again
you look at me
with those eyes I know so well
always serious, so deep and insightful
as though you're always in control
But not today
not now
Now you look so scared
like for once you don't have the answer
I gaze at you
looking deep into those hazel eyes
Hoping to understand
why you've said those things you did
I wonder for a moment
if this is all a dream
if I shall wake in the morning
and be relieved
you look at me
with a confusion I have never seen
slowly pull me towards you
and wipe the tears from my cheek...
Posted by plug at 09:11 pm
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
I never again and again count it over
Never again and again and again this
Why ?
Come on again and again on my power
And on the shame and my pain will I get this ?
Why ?
It's so real !
Fall in love again ?
It's all we have to live
Whenever I'm unseen
I blame it on myself
All over again and again coming over
Never again and again and again this
Why ?
Come on again and again on my power
And on the shame and my pain will I get this ?
Why ?
It's so real !
Fall in love again ?
It's easier to be...
Whenever I'm unseen
I blame it on myself
Silky coloured
Will you love me ? (Suck !)
Silky coloured
Will you leave me ?
Silky coloured
Indecision (Go !)
Silky coloured
Posted by plug at 01:14 am
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
She had something to confess to
But you don't have the time so look the other way
You will wait until its over
To reveal what you'd never shown her
Too little much too late
Too long trying to resist it
You've just gone and missed it
It's escaped your world
Can you see that I have needed
Begging for so much more
Then you could ever give
But I don't want you to adore me
Don't want you to ignore me
When it pleases you yeah
And I'll do it on my own
I have played in every toilet
But you still want to spoil it
To prove I've made a big mistake
Too long trying to resist it
You've just gone and missed it
It's escaped your world
Can you see that I have needed
Begging for so much more
Then you could ever give
But I don't want you to adore me
Don't want you to ignore me
When it pleases you yeah
I'll do it on my own
I'll do it on my own
Posted by plug at 01:12 am
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
Girl Friday
by Butterfingers
Ain't that hard to live alone
Ain't that far to be from home
Cause gravity can never pull me down
Calculate the days I've spent proscinating
God knows when
Grow in silence feverish or flu
And again it's me and myself and I
Fall on me
Stand aside trying to keep my cool
Stand in line feeling like a fool
It's getting late now get back in your bed
Then remembered a what my daddy said
What' cha gonna be
And again it's me and myself and I.....
Stay with me
Posted by plug at 01:05 am
